Let Me Be happy Once Again

Time spent with you fills me with sheer happiness,
I know together we will never be ,
And this does leave me in sadness,
When I see your smile ,
I can't help but smile too,
You make me feel so special ,
When you look at me the way you do,
Your the one who makes me laugh,
Never am i down when your around..
You say the sweetest of things,hearing your voice is like a heavenly sound,
You make me so very happy
,but at the same time I still cry, I cry because we will never be One, So to stop loving you I have to try ..
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Left With Beautiful Memories

I am Looking For Some Place to hide,
All My Senses ,It Seems Have died,
It's like waiting in the scorching desert for a breeze,
All I am left with All Your beautiful memories,
I don't Know How I am gonna Get On Without You,
Because The mistake wasn't mine,neither wrong were You

Lost in The Ashes of Time ..

Here I am,Lost in the light of the moon,
that comes through my window ..
Here I am,Lost in the ashes of time, but who wants tomorrow?
Bathed in blue, the walls of my memory divide the thorns from the roses,Its you whose the closest ..

My Soul is Crying..

Ticking of the clock seconds elapsed It tickles my heart reminds me of the past Unknowingly tears fallen and aching my heart..Breath away my soul do not cry See the beauty of surroundings Enjoy every minute of this universe Every heartbreak there's always a try Give your soul another chance to life, One lost love thousands coming Never deny the beauty of life The madness happens it challenge us Be brave crying soul be warrior of your own life.. All those tears and heartbreak gone when you know, Crying soul do not hide and run It's your own heart you can't run.

I'll Wait For You Till I am live

A lengthy silence falls gracefully between the two lovers,
Trying to read the stare U comes to the realization of the anguish we share..
I the blink of an eye
You crushes my hopes, dreams and desires,
with the words to follow..
I cant do this to you anymore,
we need to stop talking for a while,
I'll call you soon,
Depression sets in as
You turns and walks away into the enfolding night.. ..
Watching the love of his life walk away
I whispers to her fading silhouette " I will wait for you "

You were made just unforgetable

Jita b Usko sochun Utna he door paun Jitna b Usko chahon khud he bikharta Jaun, Mein Aam Sa Musafir be-aas,be-sahara Wo door kahin basta aasmaan ka tara,Mein Rait sey Ulajthi Sehraoon ki hawa Hoon Wo sahilon peY chalta bad-e-saba ka jhonka, Haan farak tu bhut hey, per Baat yeh Fakat hai .. ? Mein lakh toot jaunKhud sey he rooth Jaun, Per Yeh na h0ga Mujse ..k,Mein usk0 bhul jaun.. God had made you for me , i ever thought as if you were an angel sent from Allah just for me , But I never know you will be gone forever,but forever seems very short because you were made just UNFORGETABLE :)

Why Does this Happen in Love?

Why does this happen in love? In exchange for faith, why does a person not receive faith? In exchange for prayer, why does a person not receive prayer? In exchange for joy, why does a person not receive joy?Why does this happen in love? How much will love cause you to cry! It will make you forget the whole world. It will increase your anxiety; you won't know one moment of peace. What people become in love and from what! Sometimes you come together only to be separated. In this spring, you find only an autumn. Life ends while you're still waiting. In exchange for laughter, why is a person not given laughter? In exchange for faith, why does a person not receive faith? This moment doesn't linger. No watch is mounted over memories. When one's wound does not heal even with medicine,

imagine what someone might do in such a state..

The Day You loved Me

Loving was something I ran from Trusting was something that didn't come easy.
Being myself was something I could never do Faking a smile was something that came naturally.
Hating myself was something I could not hideBeing free was something that seemed so far away.
Wishing was something I learned didn't come true..
Everything was just so fake to me.
I was a stranger to myself. But that all changed in one quick heartbeat.
When you said you loved me..

If My past Could be My future

For as long as I can rememberyou have had the biggest part in my life
There has always been this magic between usand
I never even wasted a minute on the idea that we could ever grow apart
But now I'm left here alonethinking of our memorable past realizing it's the only thing
I have left of youmemories that were once so sweet and meaningfull
but now became so bitter and painfull
Because I'm concious of the fact that I'll never experience them ever again
And I didn't just lose our love.
I lost our friendship that was so precious to me.
But it's impossible for me to 'just be your friend.
And make you love me again the way you used to before you fell for U ..
Just know that you are my entire pastbut that you are not even a part of my future ..

Even I Cant Hide My Hurt

When u r in pain,
when ur heart is broken
when ur tounge stop talkin,
When u needs to cry but ur eyes is dry..U r in pain!
When u prefer to die when ur heart needs supply
When use the morning night when ur eyes closed cuz u feel fright
When u feel that all when u have no soul ,U r in pain !
When u write to express when ur hurt progress,when u see the more less you r in pain !
When ur love gone away when u feel that no way,You are in pain ..

Every Smile is Not A Smile

I carry an artificial smile
Only my Almighty can know
The weep that lulls me to sleep
Yet that fake smile will not go

The tears that stained my cheeks
Never dry when wiped deeply
For it is not the simple tears
But the tears of my destiny

What worth can I bring to life
It's only failure I encounter
The moment of each passing phase
Not a joy but plenty of tortures

Fate embraces me with an evil grin
Walking like a dead, dark and blind
If this corpse shakes in my grave
However I pretend no one can find

WiLl ThIs ChaNge?

It has been everytime
When I come to you in tears
You would try to bring the moon
To bring me out of that fear

But what you fail to see
My love that reflects in me
Why it did not bring
To give you a little hint

But now again i came crying
And show you i was dying
What makes you steady & still
You turned hard from within

And it has been everytime
That my tears fall only for you
Those bitter crystal tears
Will continue to fall in blues

ReFleCtiOn oF My SouL...

If my soul is transparent
It would reflect my heart
You can then know my desires
The desires more beautiful than art

My head filled with your thoughts
Helas! my thoughts you can't see
If ever that is possible
You will know what you are to me

I know one thing is impossible
You too know it's true
That you are my ideal love
None can deny this too

My days filled with hopes
My nights increase them more
That you will love me like i do
God has this for me in store

LisTenIng To YouR HeaRt....

Will you protect me from every harms?
And let me sleep in your lovely arms
My eyes will slowly take a naughty peep
To see if you still hold me in sleep

My safest place is in your embrace
Where I can sleep in peace & in solace
My slumber deepens as time increases
By the melodious sound of your heart-beats

Warmest I feel as you hold me tight
Intense my love will become at this sight
Just in hearing the thudding of your heart
The wound inside mine will be alright

It's this silence I try to understand
Where no words exists just your inhales
Don't want to ruin this magic moment
If you let go, my heart-beats will end

My Pen SpeAkS mY hEart...

Eyes, the doorway to your heart
Reflects the pain in you clearly
But what you fail to see is
Your pain has also affected me

To me you are a pillar of strength - But
The torture in your soul never ends
I pray to give me all your pains
Ready to accept my life if worsens

At times to you I want to talk
But the words in me only mocks
The feelings I wish to express
But my thoughts hold me in shock

It's so unjust When this happens
This is not what my heart intends
The scars in my soul lightens and darkens
Caused severly in tears By my silence

The WaiT...

Darkness surround me as I weep
Numerous reasons are so deep
Useless to complain those to anyone
My soul chases me as I run

You are there yet you are far
Feeling trapped like behind bars
Stealing my heart brutally away
Sitting and crying is what i do everyday

As days roll and turn into years
Waiting for you with my silent tears
Our seperation only darkens to me
But my love sings in slow melody

Hope for the day you would appear
Like the cloud in the sky becomes clear
The girl you love so bold and brave
But find yourself facing my grave

If I CouLD RewInD mY lIFe...

The streaming caused by my tears
Suffocates my throat though words are near
Holding my breathe to stop its flow
Dying to talk but phrases refuse to go

Coccoon myself in the worse nightmare
Scar in my heart is opening wide
Lying in sweat with shuffled hair
Silence of this night I gasp for air

Trying to set my thoughts free
But they are tight even i can't see
Thinking and thinking in this tragedy
Hoping one day you will save me

I wish I could rewind my life
So that i can avoid living on knife
Although my past was dull and dim
Better than dying a new death within

WheNevR I CloSe My EyeS...

Whenever I close my eyes
Your face appears in front of me
I feel your arms around my body
Your warm breathe surrounds cozily

Whenever i close my eyes
Your laughter lingers my ears
Your seductive voice mesmerizing
Quoting me is what I hear

Whenever I close my eyes
I can clearly see
That those deep attractive eyes
Is looking straight into me

Whenever I close my eyes
I wish i can sleep forever
But this can never happen
Since reality strikes me ever!

So MucH pAIn in This HeaRT..

Pain is overflowing my heart
You are the cause of this art
Every struggle is to make you see
I am in love it has to be

Will I ever be happy?
Will loving you be my remedy?
The glowing fire in my heart
Burning my desire for thee

God has written on my fate
The reasons of all my aches
But you happen to be my best thing
Where i know love but not hate

Love, the game that keeps going
My love for you is twisting & turning
Waiting for it to come to a standstill
The day you express your own feelings

LoVe, The UnSaiD FeEliNG...

Noone can explain what Love is
Noone can touch its awesome height
Noone can argue that Love is wrong
Noone can deny that Love is strong

Thousand miles, Seperate in Love
Longest distance can cover above
The pleasure in waiting for only Love
Makes you fly high like the white dove

Insane you will become fully
Not knowing what you do completely
Generous your heart will become
From the building you're ready to jump

But for a few, Love is very cruel
It exhausts you till you have no fuel
You drench your shirt with lonely tears
When love leaves you nothing but fear

I'm BleSsed SilENtly...

Silently my prayers are answered
A bless in disguise you appeared
Showering the rays of hope
Gathering my joys that are shattered

My crushed life laying beneath me
Yet i managed to inhale heavily
My heart shines with my tears
My soul found its mate so heavenly

I don't walk alone in this thorny path
For you are there to accompany me
Shooing the demons that come my way
In you I looked for an identity

Keeping the faith in the Almighty
With my heart beating fastly
No more force left in my body
Relying on you to live readily

WhY thIS hAPpeNs tO Me?

Why this happened to me?
When all i do is for you
Do I appear so silly?
For being in love so true

To me you are my Greek God
The eyes that pierce do deeply
Your hair stroke by my fingers
The sight of you weakens me easily!

I die to be wanted by you
As much as you are wanted by me
Very close that no air passes
In the sky we fly freely

Whenever you utter my name
I feel the whole heaven on earth
The joy you bring to my heart
This minute a death for you is worth

OnlY TheSe EyeS...

Only these eyes know a love so grand
The love so big it envelopes the land
Only stretch of sky into the open space
Can match this love enchanted by your face

Only these eyes know a truth so true
Neither anybody can break it through
With a pure soul and eyes so bright
You come in my dream I see each night

Only this heart makes me your pride
Feelings for you multiply so wide
Your sweet melodious voice singing like a song
Playing in my mind all the day long

Only this heart is moulded by trust
Hurricane or storm can't make it rust
Soft like your kiss addicting & sweet
The reason that knocks me off my feet

My love that I promise even after death
It will remain in heart and my last breathe
Leaves no question or doubt in mind
Even your eyes can't attempt to find

I bElieVe...

I don't need to pretend
Even when this nightmare ends
That you always care
And my world isn't bare

Im still not yet dead
Only these craps run in my head
But I always melt like wax
When you show your loving acts.

I love to hear you say
That you want me all day
You make my life easy to live
No matter how tough what may

With you i learned to be patient
And beleive we are more than friends
But be with me in every situation
Even if our path finds a bend

ThE KiNd Of GirL...

I am a girl as simple as others see
Who loves as much as she can be
But who has a smile as unique as she
Whose ultimate goal; is to make you happy

Known for her beauty and her qualities
Trust her & love her with your ability
So do not doubt her even a single bit
She belongs to you; please do beleive it.

A girl who finds her joy within your arms
She will protect you from every harm
She will apologize when does any wrong
Will die at your feet no matter how long

She wants to be called "that's my girl"
Will be the one who completes your world
Never gives you a chance to feel lonely
Always assures you and say "there's me"

WiLl NeVeR gIvE uP...

I am not crazy nor I am silly
I am in love with you and that's me
Don't laugh at me nor mock at me
For wanting you and loving you madly

Don't walk away and ignoring what i say
It's the sweet fact that you came my way
Not a star but an angel from above
Landed on my heart in the name of love

From the very day i know no life
Waiting for the day to be your wife
I just don't know neither i care
Living without you I never dare

I'll never give up this I guarantee
Will cling to you even if the world disagrees
You are the prince who captured my heart
Please treasure it; and don't break apart!

I aM NoT FaR...

'I love u' is what i said
And i mean it from first day
The comfort you gave me then
Will brighten my life every way

Forgetting you i will never do
Wanting you i always show
Needing you is what i crave
Leaving you i never know

Gripping me tight assuring me
By my side you will always be
Every warm word uttered by you
In my life will lead me through

Missing you in every breathe
This you never come to know
It's so strong in my desire
Meeting you is what i vow

NoWheRe To Go...

Tears rush down burning my cheeks
Opened my mouth but hard to speak
Taking a deep breathe to talk in vain
No tears but howl as i cry again

Approaching the death as i bleed
Slitting the scar as nobody needs
Trembling in fear wanting to hide
Chased by the nightmares escaped i tried

Eager to end this treacherous pain
Free up my soul like pouring rain
Why do my heart still freeze like ice ?
Struggling to make it beat again

I’m your present don’t make me your past
Getting your hint, understood at last
Broken apart tough to put me back
Gave you everything what else i lack ?

Is there a view i fail to see ?
Or refusing to grow be what i be
The air i breathe suffocates me tight
Only you can rescue from this terrible plight

Why Can'T iT Be tHis MomEnt?

Why can't it be this moment?
That we were not parted
As if you never left me
That this bond is abstracted

Why can't it be this moment?
Let this love be special
With our thoughts exceptional
Let us sleep into oblivion

Why can't it be this moment?
That you love me to madness
That you care for me truly
As i care for you

Why can't it be this moment?
That you never parted
That i did not cry my heart
Everything is same as started

Why can't it be this moment?
Make me think you love too
Only till forever dies
Coz i'm trapped in love with you

Don'T BreAK mY SouL...

Tears flowing unwillingly
But i have no guts to cry
I have to accept this moment
Instead of letting you pass-by

Though i find no reason to hold you
Even though you let me go
Cant you see i'm broken apart?
I'm slowly falling to the floor

The weapon you have is sharper
It tears my soul to tatters
I try to not get torn by it
Coz it is the words you scatter

I hide my little drops of tears
But howl within the four walls
The fact that you aren't here
To wipe the tears that fall

B'daY GiFt

I hope you feel deep in your heart
As your birthdays come and go
How truly very much you mean to me
My love for you, lives by the truth I will be your birthday's placid love We shall dance, like a gorgeous dove
We shall watch the stars above
We shall fit like a hand and glove A Birthday wish for my special love
A gorgeous princess you always lenitive
Best friends and lovers all in oneGraceful, like a rose in full bloom
Every word expressed show what I feel
On this birthday,
I’ll hold you tight Written from the depths of my heartMy love for you, shall never pause

DarKneSs FilLs My LiFe..

Darkness surrounds me each day
The reason i cannot say
It will be hard to beleive
No clue in whichever way

Darkness blindfolds me
My days are like my nights
I fumble to lay my hand
I yearn for the bright sunlight

Darkness in my heartbeats
In my veins, nerves and skin
For i find it unfair
To be crazy and mad from within

Darkness envelopes me everyday
It will stick to me till i die
When my own shadow betrays me
When my soul bids me goodbye

WilL You SheD a TeaR?

My tears which i hide
Unreveal my feelings deep inside
The pain that i undergo
Is worse than anyone dies

I'm falling down apart
Without a word to say
I yearn for this escape
To enjoy my everyday

I smile with a frown
To give him a good decision
This is how i have to make
I know it can't be a mistake

Nothing turns out to be smooth
My heart fails to soothe
Are you that famous someone?
With whom i can see fun

Is this where i should be?
Then why don't you want me?
Day by day it becomes a fear
If i go, will you shed a tear?

BrOkEn DrEaMs

It seems to be wrong
But it looks so right
When sorrow lurches in
I just don't want to fight

When i give up to live
Even the almighty din't care
Never grow up to my age
With no pleasure could spare

Knowing all these ill-fate
You cried along with me
You pleaded me to beleive
And i opened my eyes to see

When i think life is hopeless
With no pity from above
There you came my way
Nothing can beat your love

Go AwaY sLeePless NighTs...

Oh my sleepless nights
Cruel demons everyday i fight
No weapons i could shield
My lonely bed is my battle field

Protecting myself by my cover
Drifting in sleep with my lover
Pillow drenched with my tears
Yet i'm envelopped by my fears

Around is the night so calm
Wanting to seclude in your arms
So tiring i can't sleep
All i do is only weep

Waiting tomorrow the sun to shine
To stop the battle in this heart of mine
Wanting to escape from this sleepless night
In order to avoid all my hopeless fights.

UnkNowN PaiN...

i just want you to listen
To the soft whispering murmur
Of the music in this night
Where you carry my love further

May be you haven't tasted this pain
Or your's was washed like rain
The pleasure in it is sweet
The expect to end it in vain

The pain of wanting to be needed
But the pain in giving remains
That's why the hurt is still the same
At the end of the day there's no gain

You refuse to hear me
You don't let me see how you were
Deep in my soul the truth lies
To have you but you are not there

My heart stays open wide
Waiting for you to step in there
Hug me and hold me tight
Even though if you don't ever care.

Why I SheD mY TeaRs?

All my hidden tears
All my feelings inside
All my pains that passed by
All i want is die

Broken down each day
None has nothing to say
All my dreams washed away
I hope there will be a way

My unseen artificial smiles
There is no decision behind
Thorny path i walk on
My life has no rewind

Blinded by things i do
Disturbed mind & vexed thoughts
Noone beside to confide
My problems always in clot

Trying to approach very near
That's the reason i'm here
But still battling with my fears
Not knowing why i shed my tears

Am I YouR PreSent?

Look straight into my eyes
Does your heart feel content
Tell me with deep sincerity
That i am your life’s present

Right is not I always feel
But my heart utters the real
That you fake to me outwardly
Inwardly you try to reveal

Only I know the distressed you
No matter what the world see
You have decided life is to move on
All your sorrows you let them free

Remember I am not like others
I see what your heart shows
For you are my ultimate soul
Forever, your path I will follow

My WalLs KnoW...

Living as a corpse
I don't know how to think
Overshadowed by my anger
Uncontrolled by little things

Loneliness speaks louder
When solitude envelopes me
No one to share my pain
Only my walls echo again

Dampen the spirit by tears
Reaching out for rescue
Only you can lift me up
My walls only knew

Yet i feel being watched
At times when i am low
I'm never left on my own
His love is well shown

If mY lOvE...

If my love is expressed
It would be a poem in melody
Each phrase depicts my heart
Each word rhymes in melancholy

If my love is written
It would be unerased within
Nobody would smudge it's form
It will not fade in storm

If my love is shown
That this bond is known
It has imprinted in me
As deep as the sea

If my love is displayed
It is most beautifully laid
It is the magnificient art
Even if it is torn apart

My DreAm Is You...

Inhale your deep breathe
Wish the cold wind to carry you
You should stop fearing things
You should be ready to go thru

Let your dreams carry you
Never open your eyes to stop
Dont hesitate to launch yourself
For he is your only hope

One day it will be realized
When everything seems so right
Deep down there in your heart
He will be at every sight

When heaven comes down to earth
She will reach out to hold him
Then will wake up from her dream
And give a long sigh from within

JusT A DreAm...

It was a dream but it looks so real
It's exactly what i want and what i feel
Touching a face, i caress it lightly
The face that wounded me, i want to heal

The soft skin of it against my hands
I knew it was you, it wasn't blank
My vision covered with my messed hair
you slide it away, as i fixed my stare

Moving closer, melting in you
Your soft voice tells that this is true
It's the same voice that i heard before
But it was a dream i could see no more

Your smell lingered even after i woke
I found myself smiling although i choked
my chest was heavy, my heart beat fast
How i wish this dream to ever last

MaKe Me AliVe AgaIn...

Your harsh words couldn't harm me
But your silent torture is worse secretly
Hands are closed in fists of fury
Deep inside, i mourn in melody

Numerous tricks born out of your lies
Can't see when & dont know why
you are my blessing in disguise
It's just me, i'm not wise

it's been ages since i sleep in peace
No dream comes to make me pleased
All i hear is the silent scream
I'm not gifted, by this it seems

Gone are those days, but memories linger
Im with all, yet i'm a stranger
Addicted to this loneliness with you in mind
Where are you baby? i just cant find!

UnkNowN IdeNtiTy...

I pasted permanently an artificial smile
And i find it hard to leave behind
I'm just a girl next door whom you know
But i'm not the girl whom you thought so

Some people don't care i exist
Some people only know i'm a mix
So many events have passed my life
Don't know still my own rights

Should i be somewhere else?
As far as i could ever go
Can someone take me there?
Ready to accompany like river flows

I won't worry but will wait
For you being my life's eternity
I'm a strong girl and won't let go
Even though my heart cries for an identity

InComPleTe DesTinY...

In this painful solitude of mine
In the dark I hear the wind hissing
In my mind the numerous thoughts I ponder
In this horrible heart, I find something missing

These horrible nightmares appear to me
As I walk in the pool of blood
I wish all these were the lies
Or bury my soul into deep mud

I, the terrible victim…
Yet, I possess the strength inside
When I have knocked the door of death
But reality pushed me to survive

Although this is the test from above
Says I failed, but my love is true
This love will accompany my faith
To travel as far to reach you!

I am so sorry ..

I am so sorry I am doing this to you.
I don't mean to put you through the pain
I am putting your though. I have more than just feelings for you .
I am in love with you. I started to cry tonight.
When I realized you might walk out of my life.
The tears of pain streamed down my face.
I guess God is trying to put me in my place.
What did I do to deserve you?
Your love is so simple and true.
Your heart is pure as gold through and through.
You have touched my soul
You have touched my heart
And I am so sorry for what
I have done to you from the start.Please forgive me.
I do love you. All the way to the Bottom of my heart..